Soli you cannot expect to treat people like crap and say the horrendous things you have said and expect people to turn around and help you. The nasty and abhorrent things you’ve said about your own son ( as a mother I can’t ever imagine saying those terrible things) and then be genuinely shocked he doesn’t want to help you. Why would he?? You’ve tried to turn people against your family, the ones that have tried to help you, and put up with your rantings and raving on. You will always be miserable because you think you are owed far more than you deserve. Everyone you have hurt, Toby, Felicia, Kye and even Dylan have all moved on and are absolutely thriving. You are where you are because of the horrible decisions you’ve made. You’ve made your homeless woman bed, and now you need to lie in it.